What awaits me...

Monday. It all starts again on Monday. I can hardly wait! A brand new semester. A new chance to try harder in school. A chance to prove to myself I can accomplish everything I set my heart to.

Maybe.

I always tell myself the same thing. "Try harder next time, Deanna. This is your chance. Meet more people. Step out of your comfort zone." Do I actually do that? 

A Little Bit.

But it's never enough. I tell myself to take giant strides, but I am never satisfied with the small steps. 

Recently...

I've been taking those small steps. I stood up for myself. I gave a professional appearance to people helping me fulfill my teaching dream. I talked to people I didn't know. 

Things I'm excited about

1. Possibly getting to observe a classroom at my "cousins" school in Indiana. 
2. Starting a new semester
3. Learning how to write lesson plans (finally!)

Things I'm nervous about

1. My Spring semester being so busy that I overwork myself and suck at everything!
2. Not passing my Praxis exam
3. Not getting into the teacher Education Program
4. Getting a terrible placement for May Term
5. Having to work the icky job again
6. Not having enough money to pay for the semester, the praxis, May term or books. 

God, I ask You for peace. I know You can work above my fears, above my struggles and above my dreams. I thank You for being loving, patient and understanding. 

Love always, Deanna