The Coming Spring

Where do I begin to describe how insane and amazing this week has been?

Sunday:
I went to my college church for the last time in a long time. It was the Children's Christmas Program and the kids did an amazing job! I'm so proud to know them and watch them grow and learn. Then I went to work for the last time, scraping plates and loading the dishwasher. "So glad I don't have to do this anymore!" I told myself. I was stressing over finals, cleaning, packing, and studying. I didn't have any time for any of it and I was frantic to the extreme.

Monday:
I start cleaning my room and packing everything up. "I won't fit everything in the car and I'll have to leave this place I love." Then a miracle! I find money equivalent to half of my school bill in my desk drawer. Money I had all along, but still stressed over all semester. Money I had worked for this past summer. I tossed my mind back and forth wondering what I had to do now: save my money and still go home by giving up any notion that I would be staying?

Tuesday:
The hardest finals. "I didn't do well enough. I'm  a total failure. I don't deserve to stay and be blessed by such a great life that I've grown so accustomed to." I pack up all my belongings, even getting rid of a lot of stuff knowing I can't take it all home. And then, a second miracle, even bigger than the first. Someone was willing to help me out. All my financial worries were eliminated in less than 3 days. Now I can stay where I love and where I grow, where I can use my "God-gifts", where I can better myself to be a future teacher and be loved and give love to family and friends.

Wednesday:
Running around campus. Letting everyone know what happened. Getting home to sit and watch tv with my mom after a ten hour drive with so much taken off my shoulders. I can't even describe it!

Today: (Thursday)
I am ready to start new, I am ready to work hard on classes, relax with some good books and celebrate Christmas. I'm so thankful for all the people who prayed for me and supported me. I am truly and honestly amazed and greatful that I am surrounded by such Godly wisdom. I never saw how much I was truly loved until this semester when my trials were the hardest. When I doubted God, He still didn't abandon me.